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Back To Nature

I am in a rut.

I stopped blogging and commenting for awhile due to allergy. I thought that I have lost it when I arrived here in the UK but boy I was wrong because when it got back, it went back with a vengeance. I really sneezed my brains out. Now that I am back everything that I have worked hard for is gone or starting to go downwards. Numbers, PR & marketing people who I want to please to be noticed and I feel like everyone who I left is now moving forwards leaving me here.

Worse part? I dont know what to do to keep up.

I dont know how to go back. I might have sneezed my brains out as I am running on empty. Empty on ideas on what to write about and just how to go back in the loop of things.

I have been doing a lot of digging and reflecting lately. Do I still want to blog? Do I still want to take photos? If I will leave blogging where will I go?

I have no one, I have nowhere to go.

If I want to stay and blog what will I write about.

Yesterday with my camera (that suddenly feels strange on my hands now) I just started walking.
No specifc place to go I just wandered on the high street and did some people watching.
I am so jealous of how much life is emanating from each of them. So much energy. Energy that I wish I have. Spirit.

I walked further and ended here.

End of the Highstreet but where am I going to go?

I chose that lonely sign and headed to the Rockery.

Surprised to see the pond brimming with blooms.

I remember on my last visit its still winter and its cold and theres nothing here.
But now it just woken up and blooming with colors. Colors that I felt I need to document. And that is what I did. I took photos. Too much photos.

The camera still feels a bit alien but I think I will get the hang of it again. I just need time.

When I looked around the greens are just covering the whole area with spots of yellow and oranges and bees buzzing and butterfly wings fluterring.

And a big part of me wished that I can smell them. But I cant.

I imagine its like cotton candy with hint of strawberry and peaches.


suddenly I dont feel so bad about numbers.

or what to write.

I am just happy that for the first time in weeks I was able to commune with nature without sneezing albeit being medicated.
I am just happy that I get to enjoy these beauty before everything chnages and autumn will fall on us.



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Jul. 16th, 2015 05:15 am (UTC)
The photos that you took are beautiful. -Anna
Jul. 16th, 2015 09:19 am (UTC)
Gorgeous photos!
I hope you'll come link up at http://image-in-ing.blogspot.com/2015/07/get-peek-at-those-cute-little-feet.html
indah nuria Savitri
Jul. 16th, 2015 09:40 am (UTC)
oooh my...always love to see the flowers, green lush plants and nature...sooo relaxing..
Kim Carberry
Jul. 16th, 2015 10:22 am (UTC)
What beautiful photos! I am glad you were able to get out and about again....
Jul. 16th, 2015 12:13 pm (UTC)
Oh you poor thing, allergies suck. I know a little of how you feel, I had bronchitis recently and it wiped me out for a couple of weeks, I just felt so miserable and out of the loop and worse still, I didn't feel like coming online at all.
As I started to feel better I went out for a short walk and suddenly something clicked and I remembered just what is it I love to do - be outside and take photos. It's different for everyone I know, but for me that really makes me happy.

Blogging wise it's a quite time now, it usually goes like this over the Summer as more people spend more time with their families and less time online.It'll get more quiet over August but come September everyone will be back!

These are lovely shots Merlinda, it looks like a nice walk - thank you for joining in and sharing x
Kriss MacDonald
Jul. 16th, 2015 01:24 pm (UTC)
Nature and flowers are great soothers. A walk with a camera capturing its beauty is a perfect way to lift ones spirits - I could feel a smile return to your face by the end of this post with your lovely flower pictures.
Claudia Guerreiro
Jul. 16th, 2015 01:39 pm (UTC)
oh Merlinda.... i am so sorry to hear you are in a rut and that your allergies have come back. chin up! do for you! if you want to blog, blog. if you don't, don't. there is more to life. sending you well wishes.
Danielle Royalegacy
Jul. 16th, 2015 02:15 pm (UTC)
Your pictures are so beautiful!
Jul. 16th, 2015 06:48 pm (UTC)
I hope you feel better! And lovely pictures!

Jul. 16th, 2015 09:04 pm (UTC)
Beautiful shots!
All the pix are awesome and it sure is a blessing to be outdoors amdst the pollen....achoo!

Thanks for linking :)
Joyce Lansky
Jul. 17th, 2015 02:23 am (UTC)
Beautiful flowers.

Jul. 17th, 2015 11:02 am (UTC)
Baby Isabella @dear_mummy
My mummy went through exactly the same thing last week. She was ill and had no get up and go. She was knackered trying to keep up with life and blogging. It got on top of her. She took a step back and started to remember what blogging was all about for her.. It's not the numbers or stats it's about recording the beauty and fun in life. I love your photos and your storytelling! You are very talented x please don't stop doing what you do x carry on if you love it x #PoCoLo
Jul. 17th, 2015 12:30 pm (UTC)
I feel sorry you were feeling low, it has been a while since I was on your blog neither do I have time to read up right now, so I don't know where you are coming from but I do know how it feels to be feeling alone in the UK. Don't hesitate to reach out to me personally on facebook or twitter for a chat !
Mary Denman
Jul. 17th, 2015 03:08 pm (UTC)
Merlinda, I hope you continue to feel better! I"m glad you took the pictures. They're beautiful. AS bloggers, we all understand. Maybe cut back on the number of days you blog to make it easier. Enjoy the journey as much as you can! :)
Stephanie (The Nerdy Photographer)
Jul. 17th, 2015 04:14 pm (UTC)
Beautiful photos!!
Jibber JabberUK
Jul. 17th, 2015 09:49 pm (UTC)
I know what the hayfever feels like! Everybody has wobbles with blogging now and again. I nearly chucked it all in back in April. Keep sharing your lovely photographs with us.
Jul. 18th, 2015 10:54 am (UTC)
As someone who spent most of yesterday in bed suffering from allergies, I feel for you! Your photos are fab! It is so easy to get swept into checking stats isn't it, I have been trying to do it less but it's hard!
I hope you feel more yourself soon!
Becky xx
Pierced Wonderings
Jul. 18th, 2015 12:39 pm (UTC)
Oh I hate that you've been feeling out of sorts. Perhaps it is comforting to know that we all hit those points. We all have our moments when it isn't happening for us. I essentially quit blogging for a couple of years - too many things, and too much else, and no idea of where I wanted to go. I think that we get in ruts and then we find our way out...for me with photography, it usually starts by just picking up the camera. I know that when it's been awhile since I've done any shooting - it almost feels foreign and I get incredibly frustrated when I can't seem to get my shots right. It comes back though...and sometimes I capture something magical - like you did with these flowers. Beautiful, beautiful shots!

Thank you for joining us at Photo Friday again this week. Your contribution is greatly appreciated ;)
Jul. 18th, 2015 01:22 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad that nature was there for you - it never fails to lift you up does it? Hope you feel better soon :)
Mary Hill
Jul. 18th, 2015 03:35 pm (UTC)
Just keep blogging :)
I know how hard it can be to find content, but I hope you keep trying. I love your beautiful pictures and to think you found this by taking a lonely road. Real beautiful. ;)
Jul. 19th, 2015 08:39 am (UTC)
Every so often the demands of blogging do catch up with you. Spend a bit of time over Summer to yourself and don't worry. Also, it sounds like you might have hayfever. When I met with Boots recently they suggested that chewing gum can help! Lovely photos - you certainly haven't lost that. Thank you for linking to #PoCoLo x
Nikki Frank-Hamilton
Jul. 19th, 2015 06:07 pm (UTC)
These are absolutely gorgeous shots. I love your perspective. I can understand you questioning, we all do, but I love what you post and look forward to it. Please feel better soon! xx
Jul. 19th, 2015 07:02 pm (UTC)
water lily
gorgeous pink colours from @chickenruby
Jul. 24th, 2015 09:24 am (UTC)
I've been going through so much of the same stuff I could almost have written that post myself. I don't know any of the answers I just know that it's time to back off on blogging for a bit and regroup, revitalise and move onto the next phase so I will be able to feel what to write about again or where I should be focusing my energy instead. This is totally the right time of year to back off on blogging too while everyone is on holiday. I've resolved to not even look at numbers right now.

Allergies are awful. I got tests done for mine this week and I get the results next week. Breathe easy. Keep taking awesome beautiful shots and I hope you continue to share them with us all.
Jul. 28th, 2015 08:19 am (UTC)
First of all Merlinda here's a big hug from Down Under, having just left the UK my friends are all complaining that I've taken the summer with them, so if you have hayfever hopefully the worst of your allergies are behind you for the summer, not that I expect you want to be reminded of winter :)
I have been v sporadic with my blog too, as I have spent time with family and travelling, I like to slow it down from time to time to remind my blog that I control it, not the other way round! As sometimes it feels like blogging has a life of it's own doesn't it? Either that or that the blog is dead in the water when you can't find anything to write about!! We all go through it.
Have a lovely week and thank you for visiting my sad toilets!!
Wren x
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