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Life imitates Art far more than Art imitates Life
- Oscar Wilde

I have seen this series before. I kept on getting back. The premise of the story hit close to home. Literally. It is about Ivy Moxam. A girl kidnapped at a child and who only escaped her captor 13 years after. 13 long years. She is there inside his captor's house being controlled. (Spoiler) At some point of her kidnapping she was seen outside of her captor's house. Not tied but walking with him, almost looking like she has a relationship with him.

The police has questioned her and doubted her. They say its stockholm syndrome.
Why only escape now if she has a chance before?

I remember a story about an elephant in the circus. If you tie an elephant since childhood it wont escape anymore even if you just tie it losely in the end.
Because in the elephant's head he is tied. Even if the shackles thats holding him is not as strong.

So where am I going with this?

I really dont know to be honest. But everytime I watched this series I just feel like I can understand Ivy. Like at some point in the series I am her and she is me. No one understand her and no one knows what she has been through. She escaped and yet she is not getting that much support and she is being doubted by the people who is suppose to be the one helping her.

In the end she manage to really escape him. It was a sweet moment.
You can see her tired but you can also see the relief in her face that its over. The control is over.

Fiction I know but is it really? A lot of women right about now is being controlled by their captors. In 13 it is Mike White but sometimes their names are husbands, partners, lovers, relatives, hollywood executives, directors. And those ladies are not boxed or caged and yet being controlled, being tied down.

At the moment for me personally I am tired, I know you are too if you have been reading my blog for years. I have been through so much especially since November last year and yet I am still here where I am trying to get out of. The invisible shackle that is holding me is money. Universal credit is not kind to the likes of me. In my head if only I can sell I dont know my kidney or something I can finally have the money to get out of here. I would do that I would just to get out of here. My case you see is not high risk they said. I realized that there is such a thing as less harmful abuse. And when you are typecast into that category help is harder to get. Charity will push you aside. Police will probably wait till there is blood. And in the end you can not really depend on the institution that you thought will pull you out of the dark. You can only depend on yourself. And when you dont have money you can not really go anywhere else. So that puts me into square one. That is my life a dizzying circle.

If you can guess why the blog post's title is 7 you understand my plight.


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Kim Carberry
Jan. 8th, 2018 02:16 pm (UTC)
Sending the biggest of hugs. I hate that you are in the situation you are. It is so wrong that you can get no help unless you are at physical risk. What about the mental torture you are going through. Ugh!
I have never heard of Thirteen. I think I will have to give it a watch x
Jan. 8th, 2018 03:52 pm (UTC)
Kim, thanks always. Please please do not get tired of my post. This is my only way of venting out. Believe me I dont have any other means other than blogging and thank you for always always commenting. Means a lot. 13 is a bit dark but worth watching.
Jan. 15th, 2018 11:45 am (UTC)
I've never seen the program but do understand some of your plight. It's awful when all you want to do is be your own person but you are not allowed to be. My heart breaks for you and your little boy. I hope your chance of escape comes soon and that you are able to take it, embrace it and finally live the life you both deserve. xx
Jan. 15th, 2018 07:40 pm (UTC)
I want to reach out to you, hug you and help make it easier for you and your son. I wish I could give you some advice to help change your situation, universal credit is a nightmare and should be scrapped. You are stronger than you think. Hang on in there x #mmbc
Debbie Roberts
Jan. 19th, 2018 02:42 pm (UTC)
Hi Merlinda, let 2018 be the year you get the support you need to get out of the situation you are in. The pressure you must feel living as you do can't be healthy for you or Sebastian. Stay strong!

Thank you for linking up with the #MMBC.

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