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School Run Conversations

A change of routine at home gave me anxiety attacks (if you are interested you can read about it here).

While we were walking at the seafront on our school run my son asked why the medicines are not working anymore. I am taking a pill to calm me. I told him that I run out. He said
'You should get it again because it stops you from crying. When you cry I am sad.'

He knows that something is wrong with me mentally and he knows what triggers it. He cant wait for us to get away from home. Sometimes he would wish that my trigger would never go home again. I dont give those words attention but deep inside I wish it too.

I am so happy that he try to understand what being ill mentally is all about. He saw it on television once, explaining what it is and how the illness doesnt define the person who has it. He would tell me if theres a program about mental health on TV or any website that he is visiting. He will watch it if its in CBBC and try to explain the things in there for me.  He would suggest what we can do to help me. He is researching in his own little way on how he can help me cope.

My son wants to help me cope.

'Lets stay here longer'
I suggested and he said yes because I know he is stressed and we both need some fresh air.
We havent seen the sun in quite a while so when it is sunnyish we should enjoy it at least. And he just jump around. Soaking the weather.

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He got it figured out though:

'We're always better when its just us and when we are outside isnt it?'

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I said agreeing.

Its really better when we are outside. We are free. No walls to imprison us. And that is where we will try to be as much.
We stayed some more, him running around and me capturing the moment until the wind started blowing stronger.

'Lets do this again next time'
he said while we were walking back home.

I said
'Yes we will of course, always and I promise some day I will get better'

And he hums a familiar song. And I hum along.

If you want to see the program that son saw from the CBBC episode about mental health / OCD you can check it out here > CBBC NEWSROUND
There are links there explaining what mental health is all about. Easy enough for kids to understand.

Country Kids

Living Arrows



( 18 comments — Leave a comment )
Sensational Learning with Penguin
Feb. 3rd, 2018 12:42 am (UTC)
Beautiful post...
What a beautiful post, it made me well up with tears... Your son is a wise little man x
Feb. 3rd, 2018 11:36 am (UTC)
Its beautiful. The style and the words. Such a sweet young boy you have. -Annaxx
Kim Carberry
Feb. 3rd, 2018 11:46 am (UTC)
Your son is amazing. You have a very clever little boy.
Beautiful! x
Feb. 3rd, 2018 11:56 am (UTC)
It's such a hard time when you're struggling with your situation, it's wonderful that your son is being so supportive of you. I can't imagine what you're going through personally but it must be nice to know that your son is willing to help any way he can. It really is magical how calming and cleansing being outdoors in the fresh air can be.

Thanks for sharing with me on #CountryKids.
Feb. 3rd, 2018 01:45 pm (UTC)
I think everything is better when you're outside in the fresh air to blow to cobwebs away. Your son sounds like a wonderful young man x #countrykids
Feb. 4th, 2018 10:10 pm (UTC)
Your son is so insightful! He is right being outdoors is one of the best medicines
Feb. 5th, 2018 12:18 pm (UTC)
What an astute and loving little soul your boy is, you are very lucky. Our little ones often have an innate understanding of our needs when we're feeling low. Getting outdoors sounds like great therapy for you both, keep smiling through the tears. #CountryKids
Feb. 5th, 2018 06:28 pm (UTC)
Even though they are small. children often notice so much more than we give them credit for. Your son is very wise x #mmbc
Feb. 5th, 2018 06:45 pm (UTC)
He's a very clever young soul, mine also knows these things. Take care of yourself xxx #CountryKids
Shiju Sugunan
Feb. 7th, 2018 08:32 am (UTC)
What a beautiful post. Like your boy's profundity.
Feb. 7th, 2018 11:04 pm (UTC)
What a wise little boy. They understand so much more than we sometimes think they will. Take care of yourself. xx #LivingArrows
Feb. 8th, 2018 08:06 pm (UTC)
He sounds like a wonderful, caring and sweet little boy. You are doing a great job with him - never stop believing that x
Feb. 9th, 2018 09:23 pm (UTC)
What a beautiful post! It's amazing the empathy children can have. Look after yourself! #livingarrows
Feb. 10th, 2018 11:01 am (UTC)
What a beautiful post Merlinda. I am so sorry that you are having a tough time at the moment, but you have each other. You will get through this along with your beautiful little boy.

Thanks so much for sharing with #MMBC. Hope to see you Monday xx
Feb. 10th, 2018 05:45 pm (UTC)
Merlinda, he really is growing into a lovely caring boy - such a credit to you - but he's also looking so grown up now - eek! Take care lovely, and thanks for sharing with #PoCoLo
Mummy's Monkey
Feb. 11th, 2018 07:58 pm (UTC)
He sounds like an amazing young man. #livingarrows
Feb. 13th, 2018 10:13 am (UTC)
Looks to me like you have a sensitive, beautiful little boy who senses your cues. May you feel better and may your boy stay as amazing as he is now. You are onto something! Bella! #blogcrush xoxo
Feb. 13th, 2018 08:40 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry that you're struggling Merlinda, but it sounds like you've got a wonderful son. He's a caring boy and a credit to you. xxx
Thanks for linking to #pocolo
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